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Depressed! BTT x Dead! Reader:  I Swear this time I mean it

Oh Florida, please be still tonight
Don't disturb this love of mine
Look how she's so serene
You've gotta help me out

Spain looked out into the skies as it rained all day. It was hard to believe just three days ago you were going to be his and only his. You left without a goodbye but he didn’t care, he was too busy trying not to lose his mind over loosing you so easy. You slipped from the space between his fingers when he wasn’t looking. He was waiting for you…forever. He wanted the big man upstairs to give you back to him.

And count the stars to form in lines
And find the words we'll sing in time
I want to keep her dreaming
It's my one wish, I won't forget this

He looked to his left then to his right; his friends had left him to pick up chicks…again. He kept trudging on, eventually making his way home. He picked up his guitar and started to play some chords crying his eyes out in the process. He started to sing about nothing, and slightly prayed that you were dreaming forever. He promised himself he’d never forget anything that is happening he didn’t want to.

I'm outdated, overrated
Morning seems so far way

Weeks passed, his pocket was drying up with money disappearing faster than ever. He couldn’t stop spending his money on drugs, alcohol, and (Favorite Flowers). Antonio was losing his grip and couldn’t sleep. Morning wasn’t ever coming in his mind; it was forever night in his world. The only time he even picked up his mood was when he was singing on his guitar about you.

So I'll sing a melody
And hope to God she's listening
Sleeping softly while I sing
And I'll be your memories
Your lullaby for all the times
Hoping that my voice could get it right

Francis joined him now and again, observing from a distance as his friend sang all the time. He wanted anything for his friend to be happy but for the moment, there was nothing he could do. Every time Francis watched, gilbert was watching the next day. He heard Spain sing and cry. It was hurting to see their friend ache. With a deep exhale of air Gilbert tried to make out what Antonio was singing. It was some kind of lullaby for you, about the good times, and every last pitch was perfect. Gilbert slid down the door on his back; the depression was taking over him as well. Sure he wasn’t going to marry you like Antonio was but you were still important. He started to sing along with the melody.

If luck is on my side tonight
My clumsy tongue will make it right
And wrists that touch
It isn't much, but it's enough
To form imaginary lines
Forget your scars, we'll forget mine
The hours change so fast
Oh God, please make this last

Prussia wondered on and on but was stuck in a misery loop. All of this was way too much for one man to handle. He pulled out his German cross necklace and kissed it hoping you made it to the other side safely. His eyes widened and he fell to his knees, for the third time today he was remembering how you died so rashly.


You had your (h/c) hair down and a vale trailing down your back. He came into your room where you were getting ready. He saw you, trying to tell you how you looked but the words never came out. Curse his clumsy ass tongue. Instead he took your wrist and pulled you into a hug. He couldn’t believe this was all real. You and his best friend were getting married in just a matter of minutes. This hug was all he needed of you; after all you were Francis’ sister and Toni’s bride. So this was just enough for him.
Everyone didn’t see it coming, but as if karma had sick sense of humor, when Toni was just slipping the ring on your left hand the doors to the church smashed open. Your (e/c) with surprise at who it was. Every last 2P Country side by side was lined up at the door frame, with weapons in hand. Instantly they challenged the 1P’s including your groom. 2P England pulled you away and you punched his face running out to where Toni and 2P Canada were having a show down. Antonio was over powered but was trying his hardest to swing punches.

Somehow 2P America joined them and swung his baseball bat at Spain’s face you ran and took the hit in your torso. You cried out with pain and fell to the ground with a thud, coughing up blood.

~Flashback END~

Prussia started to cry more and more. The rest was too awful to remember. He tried to think about you in better times but kept drifting off into thoughts about your funeral. The scars on your Stomach covered by an elegant black cocktail dress. Francis remembered you talking about when you died. You wanted everyone to wear white and you’d be the one to wear black, because you thought because you were the one passing you should wear black to resemble black and everyone else wear white to resemble life. It hurt Gilbert to remember all of this. He shook it from his mind.

'Cause I'm outdated, overrated
Morning seems so far way

Gilbert Sang along with the once cheerful Spaniard.  He was losing sleep; he was starting to turn pale and almost stopped eating completely. He too was stuck in a world where night kept going.  This was getting noticed not only by France, but Germany, Hungary, and Austria as well. He wasn’t being the arrogant, self-centered, annoying guy he usually was. He’s now the boy who’s slouched so much he’ll almost fall over.

So I'll sing a melody
And hope to God she's listening
Sleeping softly while I sing
And I'll be your memories
Your lullaby for all the times
Hoping that my voice could get it right
Could get it right

France was taking a bunch of notice over his friend’s behavior, but was starting to understand his loss. He’d lost to death’s game and you were now gone. He stood in cosmic shock all alone in the rain. Ignoring the cars swerving past him with their headlights off, and the snarling remarks made by their drivers, he let tears escape his once magnificent blue eyes. He started to hear the singing of his friends. They were coming closer and he heard their melody to his sweet little sister who’s now on the other side.  It reminded him of when you were little and scrape your knees and come crying to him to make it better, or the first time you pulled a prank on Ludwig with him and his friends. He too started to sing to the song for you. Hoping his voice was getting it right.

You could crush me
Please don't crush me
'Cause baby I'm a dreamer for sure
And I won't let you down
I swear this time I mean it

A few months passed on, the trio stuck close to one another, never leaving each other’s sides unless it was for showering or using the bathroom. They weren’t interested in seducing women as usual, now gaining attention of England, Canada, America, both halves of Italy and Even Denmark. Each one wondering what had happened. They had already forgotten your death but the BTT was never letting it go. They were dreamers, they promised to never let you down and they weren’t going to, even If they were depressed and sang to you the rest of their lives. Unlike most times when they told that to people, this time they swore they mean it.

And I'll sing a melody
And hope to God she's listening
Sleeping softly while I sing
And I'll be your memories
Your lullaby for all the times
Hoping that my voice could get it right

Years passed since the BTT went into their deadly depression, but they kept singing to you. Everyone wondered what happened to the once loud perverted threesome who were once full of lust, but didn’t bother to ask. Whatever the reason was it was too fragile a subject to the trinity for them to ask. As for the Bad touch trio they kept singing your lullaby as Spain played guitar, hoping you were sleeping softly as they did so. Each sang about the memories, all in a melody, hoping they were singing well enough for you. They forever missed you, and never left the state of depression until they too passed, and when they did, they stayed with you until eternity, singing sweet songs for you.

ONESHOT, this is a one shot from my Depressed!CountryxDead!Reader Songfic Collection

others in the collection;

Depressed!EnglandxDead!Reader-Rembering sunday: WIP
Depressed!AmericaxDead!Reader-She will be loved: [link]
Depressed!Painter!RussiaxDead!Reader- Painting flowers: [link]

I dont own hetalia
YOU: :iconprussiagasmplz: :iconfrenchwhineplz: and :iconspaingasmplz:

i suggest listening to this as you read;
song: I swear tis time i mean it- Mayday parade [link]
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CocoArtiste Featured By Owner Apr 7, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
i'm crying
why do I keep crying
why feels
HetaliaFemFrance Featured By Owner Feb 11, 2017  Student General Artist
Oh well I didn't need my heart anyways!
HetaliaItaria37 Featured By Owner Aug 15, 2016  Hobbyist General Artist
fanXfic Featured By Owner Jul 27, 2016  Hobbyist Writer
and i'm crying and there's a knott of sadness in my throat i just um need some time alone...goodybe...WHO AM I KIDDING WAAAAAAAAAA
TheFearlessArmy Featured By Owner Apr 13, 2016  Student Artist
This Is just *cries* the feels just whaaaa QAQ
ayane1800 Featured By Owner Mar 29, 2016
This is one of those fanfics you can't not read more than once France (Denies) [V1] France (Scared) [V2] Hetalia Japan (Shaking Head) France (Crying) [V3] Germany (Disappointed) [V2] Lithuania (Scared) [V3] Hetalia Germany spinning NO NEIN Icon 

I've read it like 50 times Hetalia Japan (No Hugs!) 
PigeonPickle Featured By Owner Feb 12, 2016
Pfft- I'm not crying- *hugs Toni* Ok maybe I am crying
lunarplatinumwolf28 Featured By Owner Dec 12, 2015  Hobbyist Writer
"...who’s now on the other side."
 Me: -hears this-
      -clears throat-

But this is the most beautiful BTT x Reader story I have ever seen!
LyraCal Featured By Owner Nov 19, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Kokonue Featured By Owner Nov 5, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I'm cry so hard right now ;-; ;-;
AnimeGameGirl Featured By Owner Aug 23, 2015  Hobbyist Artisan Crafter
Fuk this is too sad. Komari Kamikita (Crying) [V5]
satansoul5971 Featured By Owner Aug 5, 2015
I don't even know why I read this, I'm crying now and I can't stop.Pikachu Crying Plz 
PrismaticallyPutrid Featured By Owner Jul 24, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Wow... This is really sad, I'm having a hard time to stop- what!? No. I'm not crying, I'm just sweain' through my eyes.
Makepastanotwar9 Featured By Owner Jun 30, 2015  Student General Artist
This may sound weird but im not a ppl person. I don't like ppl. but I really care for my cats. they help with the depression I have. because I know they love me. on mothers day this year I woke up and went downstairs and saw my blaxk cat Sylvester frantically pawing at the door. I assumed he wanted to come in and I was hugry so I told hime later. After breakfast I forgot to let him out. a couple hours later I remember so I went on the front porch and saw one of my cats mocha sleeping. Me being weird I asked "hey mocha have you seen Sylvester?" usually she looks up but she didn't move this time. So I went to pet her and she felt like a cold and hard. I started shaking her.  Part of me knew she was dead but I was in denial in a way I still am. Every time I try to think of her all I think about is that I could have saved her if only I had opened the door for Sylvester. It devastated not only me but also the cats. After school I would go out to where we buried her and sing little songs and talk to her like she was still here. I even notice her mom and her brother lay out there on her grave. My mom thought it was weird because she just saw her as a cat. My depression worsened and I am still so upset about it. This song reminded me of her soo much. Its not a bad thing. when I was listening to it I was thinking about the last night she was alive. I was in the computer room on the computer and she kept jumping on my lap. I was laughing and kept pushing her down but eventualy I cuddled her. sooo yeah ur story was really pretty sorry bout the message
SpiceCat7 Featured By Owner Jul 1, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
no it's it's ok, i found your message sweet. i understand the love for the kitties and someone times they are the ones you rely on the most
Makepastanotwar9 Featured By Owner Jul 1, 2015  Student General Artist
thank u for understanding
SpiceCat7 Featured By Owner Jul 2, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
no problem, i have a friend that's very similar to you my lovely
LovePrussiaxRussia Featured By Owner Apr 16, 2015  Student General Artist
My hurts so much....I can't stop crying...
sweetsassycat Featured By Owner Apr 5, 2015
:crying: rvmp Pikachu Crying Plz Cry run 1 Neko Emoji-14 (Cry) [V1] Wolf Crying Komari Kamikita (Crying) [V5] 
100iceWOLF108 Featured By Owner Mar 28, 2015
Wow so much tears........................... *breaths a shaky breath* oh gosh so sad
Thecrazytardis5 Featured By Owner Mar 15, 2015  Hobbyist Writer
- cries in corner -
WHAAA!!!!!Cry forever Cry forever Cry forever Cry forever Cry run Cry run Cry run Cry run Cry run Neko Emoji-14 (Cry) [V1] Neko Emoji-14 (Cry) [V1] Komari Kamikita (Crying) [V5] Komari Kamikita (Crying) [V5] Crying Death the Kid Emote Crying Death the Kid Emote Luffy Anime Emoji (Cry) [V4] Luffy Anime Emoji (Cry) [V4] Miuna Crying Icon Miuna Crying Icon Miuna Crying Icon Pikachu Crying Plz Pikachu Crying Plz Pikachu Crying Plz 
Joythunder Featured By Owner Feb 15, 2015  Student General Artist
wow u must have been REALLY depresed when u wrote this
FearsInTheWater Featured By Owner Feb 12, 2015
-goes to darkest corner and starts crying-
MiyukiKudo Featured By Owner Jan 8, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Why the hwck Zed you kell me 2ps?!
ManiacleTurtles Featured By Owner Dec 27, 2014
ManiacleTurtles Featured By Owner Dec 27, 2014
*Too busy sobbing to actually leave a worthwhile note* 
Gothfoxgirl Featured By Owner Dec 16, 2014
Oh meh gerd -crying eyes out-
chibivampirelover223 Featured By Owner Nov 20, 2014  Student Writer
I am crying so hard right now. I will find and FUCKING KILL AL WITH HIS OWN BAT
Colorcollab Featured By Owner Nov 11, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
*me before the story* this isn't going to be that bad!
*me after the story* *trying so hard not to cry* why...why...why would you do this Oliver? Why? 

Danisnotonfire: FEELS the feels :crying: rvmp Frozen - Elsa Crying Icon Pikachu Crying Plz Crying Death the Kid Emote Hatsune Miku-07 (Cries) France (Crying) [V3] 
bloomkiku Featured By Owner Nov 7, 2014  Hobbyist Artist
W-why would you do this!?! *cries*
kbjb17 Featured By Owner Oct 12, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
I have been a deviant for awhile now and I have almost favorited nothing, but I did this one. This fanfic was very well done and one if the only song fics I've truly liked reading. It was very well written and had a great story that nearly made me cry, which is quite the achievement. So I just really liked this and wanted to tell you how amazing of a writer you are.
Sk8rchic2000 Featured By Owner Sep 17, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Is it bad that I started laughing at the part where the albino was 'turning pale'?
TheBossGasm Featured By Owner Sep 13, 2014  Student Digital Artist
Reyen0804 Featured By Owner Aug 21, 2014  Student Writer
I'm not one for crying, but this did it! I will find Al...and 'Talk' with him~ Anyways, this was very well done, by far the best songfic I've ever read! Good work writer-chan!

Clap Danisnotonfire: FEELS 
the-tamer0katelynn Featured By Owner Jul 26, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Oh my gog... take your story. And leave. Leave me to drown in tears pocky and self-pity
absoluteanimeaddict Featured By Owner Jul 17, 2014  Student Writer
ohmygod why
xxDark-wolf995xx Featured By Owner Jun 1, 2014  Hobbyist Artist
I know this is supposed be sad but...
When I read about the 2p!'s ruining the wedding, a song came to my mind:…
NyanGirShadow Featured By Owner Apr 3, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
KathyBrine Featured By Owner Feb 21, 2014  Student Writer
My eyes are spewing waterfalls right now and water is leaking out my apartment window now
kjxyz1234-gmail Featured By Owner Jan 21, 2014

*finds a depression corner*
Natalia-Braginskaya Featured By Owner Jan 11, 2014
ItalianPassion Featured By Owner Jan 3, 2014
It's very rare for me to cry while I'm reading... Good Job... Good Job... Now excuse me as I cry in that corner over there... 
Dark-Candy-Cane Featured By Owner Apr 13, 2014  Hobbyist Artist
It's the same here. I will join you, only in the opposite corner. Depressed 
FearTheCrayon Featured By Owner Jan 2, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Dude that was deep...
RININFINITY Featured By Owner Dec 25, 2013
libbilochi Featured By Owner Dec 8, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
ah... m-my feels.... they died...
Fluffybunny605 Featured By Owner Nov 23, 2013
Miss-Fandom-Chan Featured By Owner Nov 18, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
I couldn't continue because I would've started crying and then my mom would ask why I was crying
wakalover2 Featured By Owner Nov 11, 2013  Student General Artist
NOUUUUUUU*clings to the three of them* IM ALIVE AND I LOVES YOUUUU
Pucca2000 Featured By Owner Oct 26, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
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